This post may seem like I'm angry or hurt, but I'm just thinking about things and so they are just my thoughts.
It seems that as we get older and become the people that we strive to be, our friends do the same...but what happens when they are too different? How do you end things when you love that person, but know in your heart that you are not the same people anymore and it just doesn't work. You have opposite views on Faith, family values, careers. It feels like you're trying so hard to keep it together for the memories you made and because you truly love that person. It just can't work out.
I have had friends that I thought would last my entire life and we would raise our children together. This is just some wicked fairy tale that someone came up with because it just isn't possible. For some reason I am attracted to people who are total opposites of me. They were raised way different, different views on Faith, politics, even lifestyle.
Is this God's way of helping me deal with people that are different? If so, why am I not making an impact on them?
I have made lots of new friends since high school ended. They are great friends. But are they to end up like my other "best friends"? Am I doomed to never have a true best friend? Why do people decide to walk out of my life as they do? Nathan is my true best friend, but I do need a girl friend too. My sister is a great friend, but she is also something like a mother...so of course it's not the same. Maybe someday that person will come along. Haha, I guess since I found my soulmate so early in life I have to search my whole life for a good and true friend.
